w the walls are cracking

I've been sifting through the pieces
Searching for a pattern
Trying to find some hidden sense of purpose
Going down blind alleys
Has me putting out my eyes
'cause I don't have the will to see what's there

Face covered
I'm shutting out the world
Retreating in this shell
And waiting for the blackness

Would I know peace of mind?
Is it true?
Would you know what you'd find
If you searched for it, too?
What you do depends on you
So explore
What I'll be depends on me
And what's there at the core

I look into my eyes
And nothing gazes back
Shadows without substance
Fading into black

2. Walls

Fifteen hours I've been staring at these walls
Waiting for the call that never comes
I thought I had it figured out
Giving you the benefit of doubt

Every day you build the wall
And I'm trying to break through
Brick by brick I'll tear it down
Until I reach the other side and you
You've made us prisoners
And I'm trying to set us free
But the final stones between us
Could be the very ones placed there by me

Fifteen months I've been staring at the wall
Waiting for the day that never comes
I placed my faith in someone else
What did you promise to yourself?
It's turned to dust

Did you build it just to see
Who cared enough to try to tear it down?

Fifteen years I've been trapped behind this wall
Waiting for the change that never comes
Still I try to open up the door
But it's been oh so long,
I can't recall the other side anymore

I'll be waiting
I will wait for you
I'll be waiting
I'll still be waiting

3. Leviathan Rising

Leviathan rises
From the ocean of our fear
Falling to our knees we cower
Bequeathing to this edifice
A monopoly of force
This parasitic beast is drunk with power

We've let our fears destroy
Our dignity and freedom
And turned our backs on all
The principles we once held dear

Behemoth rises
From the soils of jealousy
Equality enforced on pain of death
Mistaking mankind's progress
For a dialectic truth
And smothering the spirit that's behind it

From each according to ability we'll give away
To each according to his need
Until the gears grind to dust

Cast off the chains we've made
And refuse to dig our graves
Stand up, the lives we save
Will be our own

Reclaiming liberty
We'll starve the beast

We've let our fears destroy
Our dignity and freedom
And placed ourselves beneath the heel
Of our own entitlement

Cast off the chains we've made
And refuse to dig our graves
Stand up, the lives we save
Will be our own

4. Black and White World

I used to see in color
But now it's only black and white
Black and white

I used to hear your voice
But now I can't make out the sound
Not a sound

And in the solitude I've crafted for myself
I cry a single tear for beauty left unfelt

I used to smell your presence
Like fragrant roses on the wind

The sweetest fruit is tasteless
I reach to touch, but nothing's there
I'm grasping only air

And in the emptiness felt deep inside
I search for memories of what real life was like

When hope is gone and love has died
There's only emptiness inside
And all the colors drain from sight
My world is left in black and white

My hands reach for you
Can't you feel them
Don't you know I'm there
Your heart is holding back
Let it go
And feel the love rush in

Don't think about the future
Don't think about the past
Just hold the moment next to you
And make it last

Let me in
This is too good to be wrong
Make me live again
And I will make you whole

Run together, along the beach
Tumble laughing
That dream's not out of reach for me
Fading shadows on the sand
Don't give up now
Simply put your hand in mine
At the ocean, touch the sea
Feel my presence
As though you're standing next to me
On other shores, where you're my girl
And pull me out of this black and white world

Take my hand now, hold it tight
Feel my presence
And know that it will be all right
At the ocean, touch the sea
Feel my heartbeat
And know that this was meant to be
Love will lead us in tow
No more obstacles
Ahead is just the open road
Color overcomes this night
My world's no longer black and white

Black and white world

5. Unformed

You haven't drawn a breath
But I know you
Still unformed, and yet
The flame burns true

And I can't stop what's already begun
Where can I go when nowhere else exists to run

You haven't scarred me yet
But I feel you
Not yet manifest
But the pain burns true

And I can't hide from what's about to come
Inevitably everything will be undone

Someday I'll find the life I gave for you
One day in time and I will start anew
One life to live, and now it's up to me
To take back what was lost
When all of this came to be

I've never seen your face
But I know you
A disembodied voice
But the words ring true

Fate doesn't ask permission
But I won't give in

I'm charging through my weakness
And you can't slow me down
My will is much too strong
For me to fail without a fight

I don't know what to feel
With everything unreal
I won't go quietly
I am resolved

6. Keep Breathing

Seems only just yesterday
I held you, and sang a song about your eyes
So perfect, and innocent, now failing
My god I'd rather die
Than live with you in pain

Resilient, transcendent, and fearless
I hope you realize just how strong you are
But I'm weak
I just don't know how I'll make it too far
For you I'll have to try
For you I'd give my life

And though it seems I can't go on
For you I'll be strong

Ever day
I used to pray
For a miracle
Faith, now giving out
But for you I
Must keep on breathing

Ever night
I'll hold you tight
Be sure that you feel me there
Though sometimes I want to give up, for you
I'll keep on breathing

I'll be there at your side
Your strength's my inspiration
For all you'll ever need
I promise I'll be there

Don't you be afraid
You're stronger than you know
You will be all right
You've already won

I'll be there at your side
Your strength's my inspiration
I'll breath for you
And I love you
I'll always be there

7. Another Day Dies

Another day dies in the world I've made
It's a tragic and unsung passing
The zero sum game of the time I've left
Claims another victim
Looking at all of the things I broke
And the verses of songs unsung
Thinking that things could be different
If I'd only tried

Hands trembling
Sweat breaking on this brow
Exhausted now but the
Nightmares just won't let me sleep

Another night falls on the world you've made
And it's as black as a hate-filled heart
Strangle the love and reject the call
To rebuild this place
Encourage the strong to deny the weak
As you callously play your part
Devour the pain of the ones you've hurt
And spit it in their face

Hands shaking
Tears welling in these eyes
I turn away but the
Visions still presist

How far we've strayed
From supposed to be
We've chosen black instead of light
There's something else here for you and me
If we're prepared to fight

A new day dawns on the world we've made
And its filled with fear and wonder
The way it plays out will be up to us
And somehow, I'm still hopeful

Still standing
Resolve within my heart
Take these broken arms
And build

How far we've strayed
How far we've strayed
There's something else
There's something else

8. What Will You Say

What will you say about me?
Will you say I was a good man?
That you felt my love and that you loved me too
What will you say about me?
Will you say that it was perfect
Or it wasn't worth the pain I put you through?

Seems so strange
We just let this slip away

One day in the arms of another
When you're close enough to share
The dreams you'd wished would be
What will you say about me?

What will you tell him about me?
Will you say that we were soulmates
And you knew our lives were meant to be as one?
What will you think about
When you've a family all your own?
Will you wonder where your other half has gone?

Happines
Slips like sand between our fingers
Never to return

One day in the arms of another
When you're close enough to share
The dreams you'd wished would be
What will you say about me?
One day (one day)
Far apart from each other
Will you think about the chance for love you threw away?
What will you say?

We had more than most have dreamed
And I cannot conceive
The reasons that you couldn't let it be
And as the years go by
And we live out our lives
I'll always wonder way
You wouldn't spend yours here with me

One day in the arms of another
When you're close enough to share
The dreams you'd wished would be
What will you say about me?

One day (one day)
Far apart from each other
Will you think about the chance for love you threw away?
Will you think about the mistakes you made along the way?
Will you think abou the place that we might be today?
What will you say?

9. Fistful of Sand

Thrust your hand into my chest
And pull out a fistful of sand
Cast it down upon the ground
And watch as it blows away

The world keeps spinning ever-on
And dark hair turns to gray
The ticking clock cannot be stopped
And so goes another day

Falling down
Spirit broken
Hollowed out
Never to return

Dig your hand into my eyes
And pull out a fistful of sand
I only see betrayal now
So I'm better blind

It didn't have to be this way
But I can't reclaim my yesterdays
And so I'll let the string play out
As I lie crushed by my self-doubt

Fallen down
Spirit broken
Hollowed out
Never to return

Words mean nothing
Promises were lies
And my life's hourglass
Empties out before my eyes

One life
One chance
A single invitation to the dance
Choose wise
Choose well
Good intentions pave the road to hell

Words mean nothing
Promises were lies
And my life's hourglass
Empties out before my eyes

10. Love Kills Us All / Life in One Day

Every summer leads to fall
And we give your hearts
Hoping there's no chain of consequence
And there's nothing I can do
To change my past mistakes
That built up these barriers between us

I know the truth is something we can't run from
But I know you do your best
I feel you running every day
So many things you don't want to believe in
And all I'm left with knowing
Is eventually, love kills us all

Seems so strange to think of
A time before we met
Before I knew the meaning
Of love or of regret

You're hiding, I'm searching
I'm holding out my heart for you to take
I'm losing, but I'm fighting
Because I know our future is at stake

Can you live your life in one day
Cause I don't know what more I've got to offer
A transient connection
Just a flash and then it's gone
And only I remain

Snow fell on the platform
Of that train on Boxing Day
Falling into your arms
Is where I'd hoped to stay

Your heart protected
And I've got only emptiness inside

Now I've lived my life in one day
I don't know what more I have to wait for
An element reacting
Just a flash and then it's gone
And only I remain

Something stirred the embers
In this long dead heart
Beautiful and simple
But much too far apart
We only had a moment
But this I know is true:
If you close your eyes - remember it
I'll be there with you

Won't you take my hand for just one day
I'll give you everything I've got to offer
A transient reaction
Just a flash and then it's gone
A solitary moment
But the memory still lingers on
And I would go through anything
Just to feel that way again
To live my life in just one day