e my body
I can't control the subliminal thoughts that grow inside my mind
Day by day I'm drifting further and further away
From the man I used to be not much left of the real me

The pain grows stronger everyday and my soul is turning black
Left alone with useless thoughts and a life beginning to crack
If you could see inside of me and taste my bitter life
You would see an empty soul drowned in misery

In the moonlight dancing madly backwards
In the cold light no pain will touch my soul
In the moonlight surrounded by darkness
It feels so right I'm burning I'm burning until sunrise

I drown in the darkness I'm fading away
Nothing can stop me now
Another dimension is opening for me
My eyes are closed but I still see the light

Take me higher show me the way
I'm lost beyond pain

In the moonlight dancing madly backwards
In the cold light no pain will touch my soul
In the moonlight surrounded by darkness
It feels so right I'm burning I'm burning

In the moonlight dancing madly backwards
In the cold light no pain will touch my soul


2. Freak Jesus

Shiny like tomorrow but dead as yesterday
Moulded thoughts drowned in human day

Hand of claustrophobia tears my soul apart
Depression seems to be my only friend

Trapped in human patterns like a sculpture made of stone
Millions of people but I'm still alone
Silence surrounds me I can't communicate at all
Talking to me is like talking to a wall

Without tears it's hard to cry
Too numb to be alive
In a world shaded grey
For the fear of pain for the fear of life itself

I hide I hide inside my soul I'm a riddle for you all
You want to see me bleed but I'm not the enemy
Alone I'm hanging here. Alone crucified for you all
I've been embraced by the nails of fate

Years and years of pain my life's been coloured grey
Pain and misery no more agony
I'm nailed to your cross I hear your laughter inside of me
Trapped in a pose that's gone too far like Jesus I bleed

Without tears it's hard to cry
Too numb to be alive
In a world shaded grey
For the fear of pain for the fear of life itself

I hide I hide inside my soul I'm a riddle for you all
You want to see me bleed but I'm not the enemy
Alone I'm hanging here. Alone crucified for you all
I've been embraced by the nails of fate


3. Nectars Of Eden

I feel the heat from the flames
I'm dying the essence of pain
This bitter life has come to an end
My mind is tired my heart is bleeding
I can feel the taste from the nectars of Eden
Never again shall I face the pain of living
In a world of shame

When my yellow dies under velvet thoughts
I feel no pain within
I've kissed the crystals of Eden

Out of the fire I leave this bitter pain
My only desire get away from this world of shame
Come take me higher save me from the flames
The essence of power a jester's sweet charade

I feel the pain decline
I'm leaving this world behind
I feel the pain decline
I'm leaving this world behind

Never again. No more pain
I feel the taste from the nectars of Eden

I am leaving this world of utopia
No more sadness cause I'm on my way
In a state unacquainted to nausea
In the Garden of Eden I stay

I feel the pain decline
I'm leaving this world behind
I feel the pain decline
I'm leaving this world behind

Out of the fire I leave this bitter pain
My only desire get away from this world of shame
Come take me higher save me from the flames
The essence of power a jester's sweet charade


4. With Tears In My Eyes

In this mournful sadness, I feel right at home. I hide my face
From your eyes. I try to carry on
My soul is burned and I've been burned for the last time
Never again will I face the pain, I won't open myself again

Sorrow is all that remains, left on the outside again
Sorrow is all that remains, left on the outside again

I fall apart but you put me back together, my heart is still broken
And a broken heart won't heal
You saturate my body, with liquid of disgust
I made love to the devil's daughter
She buried a thorn in my trust

Sorrow is all that remains, left on the outside again
Everytime it's just the same left on the outside

With tears in my eyes, and a heart still aching
In sadness I hide, to get back on my feet again
So many times, I felt this pain before
I'm not a part of this human race, all I can do is ignore

You're all dying to live
You're all dying to live but I'm living to die
I'm hollow on the inside, nothing left but a shell
But I carry on, I carry on until the end
I'm not afraid of dying, anymore

Alone on the outside looking at the inside
Alone on the outside don't wanna be inside
I respect the world you live in but I don't believe in it
I respect the world you live in but I don't believe in it

Falling, I fall in spirals of fire, losing all control
Please put me back together, help me

I'm on my way, but there's no light in this tunnel
I feel no pain, her hand embraces my soul
Emptiness, the silence has spoken
So much wait, for this voyage

Sorrow is all that remains, left on the outside again
Everytime it's just the same, left on the outside


5. Involuntary Existence

Defected perfection another truth so full of lies
Corrosive laughter is all that's left inside my mind
I follow my instincts, I try so hard to understand
No more choices. Now I'm stuck what a shame

I know there's no meaning to carry on but still I try
Involuntary existence life sucks then you die

Looking at the world with sewn shut eyes
Bouncing against walls but I'm still alive
Trapped within myself I'm lost somehow
Tired of it all

My eyes won't tell you nothing
My eyes will burn through you
My eyes won't tell you nothing
My eyes are true

I believe you people lost your sense of humor
Cause you don't laugh when I bleed
But I find it somewhat peculiar. You call me cynical
While you get fucked by reality

I'm intransigent I don't care your words are non existant
So I find it peculiar you calling me cynical
While you get fucked by reality

Get out of my way. Got nothing to say to you anyway
Leave me alnoe. You're full of it

Don't say a word I read your mind you're left behind
Get out of my way blind leads blind

Looking at the world with sewn shut eyes
Bouncing against walls but I'm still alive
Trapped within myself I'm lost somehow
Tired of it all

My eyes won't tell you nothing
My eyes will burn through you
My eyes won't tell you nothing

My eyes...

Are true


6. Opacity

Crying I cannot believe the world that I see
Is not for me
Praying please take me home
I'm here all alone and slowly I fade
If you could see my misery
Would you believe in opacity?

The hate that burns inside of me, is a furious onslaught
Caused by reality
21 long years of pain is more than I can take
I'm sick and tired of your moral standards
This world is built on fake
Cause I can see the truth, behind your every lie
I swallowed them so many times that I'm almost dead inside

I'm dreaming away from this world I hate
I'm building my own religion
Can't look back cause I'm so afraid that I will end up, just like you
You might call me suicidal, but I'm not the one to blame
I hate the way you look at me I'm not a part of this game
If you could see the truth behind each and every lie
If you could see the agony I'm building up inside

Pain is my friend
Life's just a game
Take me away from here

I push away the shades of grey that seem to be my fate
I replace my joy with agony cause I survive on hate
I run away from this world of pain I hide inside my mind
I'm living in the opacity you left me behind

Heal my wounds. Burn all my sorrow
Make me smile. After tomorrow
I hide, in a gloomy state of mind, take a look inside
And pain is what you'll find
All alone, and solitude surrounds me it feels like home
Nothing can hurt me
Heal my wounds
Burn all my sorrow
Make me smile. After tomorrow


7. Spoonbender

All the pain is mine leave your guilt behind
I'm not dying for you
All my wounds are real and my scars won't heal
A world drenched in blood

Burn my eyes, I see the world without them
Terrified, you feel my pain
Slit open the sky, and let out my stars
Look inside, it'll make you drown

Take me now, burn with your lips
Lick me free, from grey reality

My scars are whispers of...need
And shaded eyes are filled with grief
I feel you burning through my veins
Make love to me then shove me down the drain

I will never fear again...never

Come crucify me, come and nail me down
Just crucify me, all the pain is mine

I feel her roaring through my soul
She got ways to make me crawl

My scars are whispers of...need
And shaded eyes are filled with grief
I feel you burning through my veins
Make love to me then shove me down the drain


8. Evergrey

Forever, we're lost beyond a day
Tomorrow will bring bitternes and fragments of hate
Our sickening lives, will die behind
Silhouettes of evergrey and scars from yesterday

The dreams we keep inside, will surely pass us by
And when truth becomes a lie we all die
The remains of yesterday, will keep us all awake
Reality will quake and we all bleed...we will bleed

Sadness the joy that I lack are traded for
A meathook, buried in my back
Nothing can ease your pain, dancing on the edge
Soon to go insane

Downwards we go
I'm fading for sure
Downwards we all go
Evergrey

Time passes us by, and each day we die
Side by side, slowly we die

Dying we're dying
Piece by piece we're fading away season of decay
Fading we're fading

Nothingness takes our last breath, we're soon to be no more
Forever lost beyond our lives, never to return

Life is pain
In the evergrey

Life is pain
In the evergrey

The dreams we keep inside, will surely pass us by
And when truth becomes a lie we all die
The remains of yesterday, will keep us all awake
Reality will quake and we all bleed

Downwards we go
I'm fading for sure
Downwards we all go
Evergrey


9. Skunk Hour

We all try to catch the beauty, in a world that's mouldering
And we dream of tomorrow, anything to ease this pain
Can you deal with the truth, can you deal with life itself
Or will you hide behind, retouch the picture and play the game

I try to see the real me, but there's someone else in here

Open your eyes you coward, now it's time to confront yourself
Take a look inside, go on just face the pain
Can you deal with yourself, can you see what's really you?
Or will you close your eyes, and hide behind another lie

I'd like to see the real me. But I'm afraid to look inside

I am fear, the lord of pain. I'll break you down, with my bare hands
I'm your conscience, deep inside. I feed your mind, you're full of lies
Plunge into oceans of hate restrained by, the anger you create

Falling, from the stairs inside your mind, crawling helpless like a child

When you try to see things clearly, shattered pictures erase your mind
You hear voices on the inside, then your mind goes blank

Trapped inside your inner self forced to see the truth
There's no use to run cause the doors are closed
No more excuses the truth you cannot bend
It's hard to deal with life when you're used to pretend

A psychotic mind erases and deconstructs to improve
It'll leave you blinded with a hallucinating truth
No more excuses the truth you cannot bend
It's hard to deal wiht life when you're used to pretend

If I'd only known the answer
Life will be easier when you see who you are
No more fear no more lies se the truth with new eyes

Killer instinct you face the pain
Nothing will ever stop you
Killer instinct play the game
New eyes no longer afraid
You'll never hide again
New eyes no longer blind

We all try to catch the beauty...