Lillian Axe

rything I need
Slips right through the cracks as I watch it wash away

I drank the waters poisoned from the tree
I died a thousand times but woke up just to breathe
Well I can feel it ripping through me
Like a tiger
Well I can take you to nirvana
With a simple mind

And everything I see
Is jaded from the light that I used to follow
And everything I need
Slips right through the cracks as I watch it wash away

I can feel it
Ripping through me
I can feel it
I can take you to nirvana
Well I can take you

And everything I see
Is jaded from the light that I used to follow
And everything I need
Slips right through the cracks as I watch it wash away


2. Antarctica


I climbed the mountains and scaled the ice
Released defiance
My blood ran white, cold and numb

I saw the shadows of demigods
Whispering answers that time forgot
Forever true

I’m frozen blue
There’s not much time
I died for you

A true believer, the king of lies
We all betrayed you
Your blood ran white

I’m frozen blue
There’s not much time
I died for you

Antarctica


3. Become A Monster


Recondition mind position
Power what’s in store
Junk omission, mental fission
Strong forevermore
Space age, so they say
Too good to be true
Bite the hand that feeds the crap to you
Fire in your eyes, high above the rest
You are the mountain

Hide, I’m obsolete
I don’t belong here
I am complete
Become a monster, become a freak
We don’t belong here with the weak

Educate, obliterate
Denounce your darkest fear
Adrenaline the drink of the win
Demand or disappear
Burning, jump your skin
Beat your body blue
Find the dog that threw the bone to you
Catch straying mice
Dip them in the sea
Baptize the liar

Hide, I’m obsolete
I don’t belong here
I am complete
Become a monster, become a freak
We don’t belong here with the weak

When all the sheep went out to graze
The devil’s hounds said, “God be praised”
To stand alone, to walk the coals
Bury the dead, and fill the holes
Bleeding from the stomach as your breath leaves from your heart
Feel the monster rising as it rips your soul apart
Painfully you question inner strength you try to hide
Raise your fist to heaven, feel the monster from inside

Space age, so they say
Too good to be true
Bite the hand that feeds the crap to you
Fire in your eyes high above the rest
You are the mountain

Hide, I’m obsolete
I don’t belong here
I am complete
Become a monster, become a freak
We don’t belong here with the weak

Monster, become a monster
I am a monster
I am a freak
I am a mindfuck
I am a monster
I don’t belong here with the weak


4. Quarantine


Too late to meditate to change what’s so obscene
Hide away I choose to stay inside my quarantine
I’ll let you crawl inside where the clientele are few
We’ve come a long, long way just to have a drink with you

I’ve seen it everyday as my walls are closing in
I plan the great escape with my patience wearing thin

Out of my web, I’m a little anxious being touched by you
Just can’t seem to find a view
My religion seems to break in two
Save me

Take a trip inside my mind
Absorb all I have seen
Fight the scream and find a home inside my quarantine

I feel amazing satisfaction talking to myself
But when the clouds approach my insides don’t feel too well

Out of my mind, get a little nervous when I smell your kind
Decaying mastermind
If they get you and are so inclined
Clean like me
Time to leave cause something’s closing in on me
The way I’ve chosen runs to the sea
Where nothing’s sacred unless you believe inside my quarantine

I’ll let you crawl inside where the clientele are few
We’ve come a long, long way just to have a drink with you

Out of my web, I’m a little anxious being touched by you
Just can’t seem to find a view
My religion seems to break in two
Let me be

Time to leave cause something’s closing in on me
The way I’ve chosen runs to the sea
Where nothing’s sacred unless you believe inside my quarantine


5. I Have To Die, Goodbye


Angels come to earn their wings
Shield me from the pain I hold so tight
They seem so invisible
The blind can’t read without their light
And then the darkness came and cluttered up my kindness game
While everyone said, “Keep a smile,
And sweep your hurt beneath the tile, and bow to me”

Clipped of wings and forced to fly
All my trust naïve weighs me down
And like a child deflected sight
Deaf ears can’t hear the killing sounds
Robbed of all my sanity
The norm was mediocrity
And wise men fell from pedestals
The weak made goblets from their skulls
And came for me

Now, before I go
I’ll let you know a secret
Then maybe you will understand
Staring deep into your soul
I thought could make the torture go
But, it seems love never can

Free, roll out to the sea
Martyr out of me
As I sail crucified
Bleed, taking of my seed
Kiss me, turn and leave
I have to die, goodbye

Lost my faith so long ago
The worthy come, the worthy go to sleep
Resting far beyond the lies they keep
On my tongue a thousand tears
A burning hate that reappears in me
So now you turn to me, my friend
To try to make me heed my own words
It doesn’t work that way
It comes my time, reach ladders I can’t climb
I’ll take another way

Free, roll out to the sea
Martyr out of me
As I sail crucified
Bleed, taking of my seed
Kiss me, turn and leave
I have to die, goodbye

Angels come to earn their wings
Where were they when I thought I could fly?
But they remain invisible and
Wonder why we lose our will to fight
Still now the darkness comes
We close the shades, avoid, be numb
But, through the cracks, beneath the door
It finds a way, become its whore
So lay with me
Away with me

Free, roll out to the sea
Martyr out of me
As I sail crucified
Bleed, taking of my seed
Kiss me, turn and leave
I have to die, goodbye


6. Fear Of Time


I watched the moon destroy the sun while blindness tried to see
Silver rays of better days came shining down on me

Fear of time destroys your peace of mind

I felt my earth become a dream of insecurity
Close my eyes inside there lies my failing memory

Fear of time destroys your peace of mind

Free your mind in the sea of time
Free your mind from your fear of time

Dust to dust the endlessness destroys my sanity
Take me home where I can roam for all eternity

Fear of time destroys your peace of mind

Clear your mind in the sea of time
I’m free now, so free now
To see how mindless is my fear of time
I walk alone, I’m coming home
And all I leave you is my fear of time

I’ve got no time to live a lie or question what I see
Swallowing this evil thing that’s feeding off of me

Fear of time destroys your peace of mind

Clear your mind in the sea of time
I’m free now, so free now
To see how mindless is my fear of time
I walk alone, I’m coming home
And, all I leave you is my fear of time
I’m free now, so free now
To see how mindless is my fear of time


7. Until The End Of The World


She came to me one summer night
The moon was red, the time was right
She whispered in my ear, “You’ve got to go.”
Fly away and make a new start
Discover what sets you apart
She kissed me on the cheek and disappeared

I realized what I had feared
So I’m searching for my judgment day

Heartless is the cold, under the stars I pray
Lifeless is the dark, my passion lights the way

Run with me, no boundary can block my point of view
Escape with me, a fantasy come true
Endless seasons with you
Till the end I’m with you
Until the end of the world

Find it hard to say goodbye
To understand the reasons why
I’ve got to break the chains that hold me down
Still I wish you’d show your face again
As I’m searching, it’s just not the same

I can’t recall what games children play
Faceless is the flame that lights my golden way

Run with me, no boundary can block my point of view
Escape with me, a fantasy come true
Endless seasons with you
Till the end I’m with you
Until the end of the world

I’m left alone while nature takes its toll
Just let me be so I can save my soul

Run with me, no boundary can block my point of view
Escape with me, a fantasy come true
Endless seasons with you
Till the end I’m with you
Until the end of the world

She came to me one summer night
The moon was red, the time was right
She whispered in my ear, “You’ve got to go.”
And fighting back the tears
She kissed me on the cheek and let me go


8. Fields Of Yesterday


What a day to ride away
Had to find the reason for my loss of yesterday
But I still don’t know why I sink so low
Giving birth to worries, asking where we’re gonna go
Guess I’ll never know

Feel the skies anesthetize and wash my fears away
I believe that when we leave, we face another day

Losing memories, childhood slips away
Demons here in the dark, and they say,
“Have you ever known the fears of a madman?
Watch us live, watch us die in the same plan?
Did you really think there was another place for your soul?
Have you ever seen the stare of a dead man?
Taste the salt in the tears of a sad man?
Will you have the strength when you go to the show?

Then I saw a sign near the corners of my mind
In the fields of yesterday

Looking back it’s been so long
My burning passion keeps my hunger going strong
But, I still can’t see something’s stopping me
From the lake of knowledge I thirst for desperately
Just to drink of easily

When you sleep your demons come, and scare your dreams away
Bringing thoughts of mortal men in rooms where angels play
Let me taste of secrets unrevealed
Battlefield for a soul they came to steal
Will you ever put an end to the bad man?
Eat him up, spit him out, like I know you can
Let him know I’m never giving in or losing control
Saw you counting every star in the night sky
Came to join you 'cause I see with you eye to eye
Gets so lonely when the answers won’t obey when they’re told

I saw the light piercing through my fading sight
In the fields of yesterday

When I close my eyes to sleep, I’m blind
The ghost of all my years appears to be unkind
The poison of my tears
Nothing, something, life creating
Thinking, fearing, dedicating
Worlds colliding, hating, fighting
Sex and pleasure, so inviting
Reproducing, learning, crying
Generations passing by
The blinking of a careless eye
Religious zealots pray to die
With lying, cheating, hurting, killing
Try to keep your life fulfilling
Gasping, save your final breath
A futile try to conquer death
You put your life in order, cry for the truth
And then you die
Feel a certain peace I never knew
Leave them all behind
I’m gone now
Goodbye, cruel world
Let me sleep forever in your bliss
Fading, I remain answerless

Have you ever known the fears of a madman?
Will you ever put an end to the bad man?
Will you have the strength to fight him
When you go to the show?

Then I saw a sign near the corners of mind
In the fields of yesterday


9. Thirst


Wet me, wet my lips, a slow degeneration
Find me solutions for all my aggravations
Fill me, fill my space, with anything of substance
Empty I can’t survive, a hollow cave inside

Help me, fire the mindless
Reason, gonna let them free
What’s it gonna be?
Hire the shameless
Treason, make them follow me
So I can feed my soul

If you see me in the morning
Lay me down and gather what you need
Move so slow you hardly make a sound
Quench my thirst, and make my passion bleed

Kiss me, wet my face, release my savage lust
Drive me forever to give you sacred trust
Empty, climb inside, absorbing all I witness
So much more I need to know
I’m feeding way too slow

Breathe slow, searching forever
Breathe deep, need to know it all
Never gonna end, infinite wisdom
Teach me, gonna melt my mind
So I can feed my soul

If you see me in the morning
Lay me down and soak up what you need
Move so slow you hardly make a sound
Quench my thirst, and make my passion bleed

Seems I’ve lost my will today
My skin is way too tight to stay
All eyes on me, just let me be
So I can feed my soul

If you see me in the morning
Lay me down and suck up what you need
Move so slow you hardly make a sound
Quench my thirst, and make my passion bleed

Fire the mindless, help me
Save us, fuck all the mindless


10. The 2nd Of May




11. Deep In The Black




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