h branched thoughts
But they fail in something, They fail to see
That "I'm so fucking tired, Why can't I be alright"
And for those who felt nothing this year
The fall went right through here, And here
And here with the burdens we'll have to take now
To be safe from harm, To get us through
For how long has it been there
My heart's so full of this
No leaves will line the streets
And who could ask for more, Who could ask for more
The world of my soul is all I have
To thank with all of my patience
And I don't wanna follow
The same old goddamn line
'Cause it would be too much and I would be no more
Then I wouldn't be at all, Then I wouldn't be at all


2. Waste Of Bereavement

Now the devil is old and diseased
In the very heart of each bone
All the sons have gone to their mothers
To learn the things that will count
Those who die may come back
"How you leave today" does not
And if you wanna get down below
Then you'll get down below
How I'd like to live in a city
That don't breed for spiritless dreams
But I'll stay awake and I'll pray
Let them go away if they want
"My fucking youth in a sewer"
Is not the loss to be grieved
And I got no hate for you
Honey, No good it will ever be
If I can't make it here I'm not gonna make it
If not here, I'm not gonna make it anywhere
"My fucking youth in a sewer"
Is not the loss to be grieved
And I got no hate for you
Honey, No good it will ever be
Poor devil's ass for god's fist
If what you are is being a no one
And if you wanna get down below
Then you'll get down below
Oh oh oh oh, Is it like that
Will the little town little boots
Melt away, Melt into this world
If I can't make it here I'm not gonna make it
If not here, I'm not gonna make it anywhere
Anywhere, Anywhere


3. Misanthropic (Let The Crown Fall)

Will the earth sink into the abyss of nothingness
With naught but thick blackness
And have I followed the will of my own
No, I don't think I'm any better than you
If the circle gets all straightened up
Then comes the age of northern winds
No one is crowned, Let this word be weighed
I've washed my hands to hold you close
Well, I'm dead serious tonight and I'll have it now
Set out to sing, Baby, To sing the verses of fall
When there are no more words left
That's the right thing to do, Right on yeah
Well, I'm dead serious tonight and I'll have it now
Set out to sing, Baby, To sing the verses of fall
When there are no more words left
That's the right thing to do
It's not a question of who's the meanest motherfucker on earth
It's not a question of who gives or who doesn't give a fuck
"Maahan miehet, Maahan miekat, Maahan..."


4. Black Seas Cry

A wretched man one will grow to be
While someone's heart is weeping
Is it a lot of weight, A lot of grief
And what will become of this
There's nothing for us, Nothing else
As long as it lasts the world's all the same
Broken and lonely hallelujah
And three rivers will be with you
And the greater the sorrow
The more trees will grow from where it began
If you have to cry then cry now
And let them hear, Bringing the seas near
To know what it's like..........
Oh yeah, I know what I don't know
'Cause I'm just like you
"Even if the search was neverending
I swear I'll return here
With bitter frost surrounding
With a part of the emptiness
The night is inside, The night is beloved"
And three rivers will be with me
And the greater the sorrow
The more trees will grow from where it began
If I cry now it's too much
But I'll let them hear, Bringing the seas near
To know what it's like..........


5. It's A Long Night

Empty frames, Withered leaves and a broken window
"18 years have had to go, They're gone, Who found the path"
The angles to my heart wide open with angelic speech
But it can't be said out loud, The thing is that it can't be said
Or the morning sun will set into magic sleep
Something in my heart told me I must have you
Tonight I'll have it all, Now lay on the bedded grass
It's coming and it's a long night
For the souls who got nobody
It's coming and it's a long night
For the souls who got nobody to lean on
Empty frames, Withered leaves and a broken window
Love was not a glance away
A warm embrace more than a dance away
"I should go outside and take a walk"
With no incense and no lute
It's coming and it's a long night
For the souls who got nobody
It's coming and it's a long night
For the souls who got nobody to lean on
It's coming and it's a long night
For the souls who got nobody
It's coming and it's a long night
For the souls who got nobody to lean on
And autumn is there to picture the loss
I'm not going back, No, I'm not going back to that


6. No Moon & No Queen

Snowing wherever you go
Seen in the red light of sunset
Tell me of times before this life
And tell me if it's too late, Already too late
I've tried to be cleansed from their quarrels
The curtain of flames was easily passed
Though I feared, I feared a lot
For life can be hard sometimes
When we're dreamless and cold
The moon hiding tears of scarlet
Nothing but a glance of mourning
Winter queen is made of deceit
And the heathens they all die too young
"I want to hold you in my arms,
I want you more than my soul"
In chambers and in need
For my eyes to be blessed
And what was the worth of it all
How did I live through the mist
Given the part of a wolf
Almost hunted down by the weak
In chambers and in need
For my eyes to be blessed
For life can be hard sometimes
When we're dreamless and cold
The moon hiding tears of scarlet
Nothing but a glance of mourning
Winter queen is made of deceit
And the heathens they all die too young
"I want to hold you in my arms,
I want you more than my soul"


7. Gravesilence

Good life brings loss that is honest
The rope tightens when I'm soulless like you
Now I'm here with this fucked up dream
Not a sound, Time has stopped and we're blind
Who turned the amplifier to full volume
And sang about grave silence:
"Rainy days and lonely nights, Only darkness
There's no light or X.X.X.X in my life"
This place is a moment of grief, No bullshit
Who turned the amplifier to full volume
And sang about grave silence:
"Rainy days and lonely nights, Only darkness
There's no light or X.X.X.X in my life"
This place is a moment of grief, No bullshit
With years changing it all stays the same
Where am I going and where have we been
True depression is different, Isn't it
"If I can't cut it out and direct the force
To something useful, I'll make the right decision"
And it's not like a real suicide


8. The Nolan's Fati

For how long have they done thy will
"The sun of midnight is ever the son"
How much it takes to see what burns our skin
Oh what have we achieved by this
Words are spoken and things are done, What is wrong
God is damned but god's animal mother is alright
"I can't find myself, Don't need this anymore"
(Well, At least my mother has faith in magic)
The loss of strength could not have me
Asinine and golden I ride to this city
While by our lady precious chaos rules
For how long has all been in dirt
Let's hope it rains, I think they're dying or is it just me
Well, At least the stars gave birth to something new
But if it's the kind of love and it's the kind of love
That we've been warned about, They're in trouble
And the stakes are high as that of Bruno's
For all the humble tyrants nowadays
Is it better to keep on singing
"Your paths were never even close to mine"
When I was cast aside I thought it'd be my fate
With hollow eyes Proserpina's garden is left behind
And the stakes are high as that of Bruno's
For all the humble tyrants nowadays
Is it better to keep on singing
"Your paths were never even close to mine"


9. More Withering

Caught somewhere close to this world
Close enough to watch beside
Where else could have we retired
When there's no place at all, No, Dear
Is there a haven for those who can't wait no more
Would there be a haven for us
Mordant wrath is like a dead tree
For my ears were, They were killing me
Mordant wrath is like a dead tree
For my ears were, They were killing me
"You think you're withering but you're not withering"
Mordant wrath is like a dead tree
For my ears were, They were killing me
You know I have tried not to forget
How I suffered from everything
That was within (and all over) me
And what we used to be like
In the haven where I lived
Without you, Without you
Now would you help me
'Cause I've seen this already
Have I taken it all with me
"And I'm so easily caught
Forgive me that I'm caught in this
That I can't help it like I couldn't help it before"
You know I have tried not to forget
How I suffered from everything
That was within (and all over) me
And what we used to be like
In the haven where I lived
Without you, Without you


10. Auguries Gone

They say the good man has gone bad
And nothing's god comes to those who wait
But they own our world and I'm not part of it
Are those devils gonna have their way
We've been stranger than the night
But force and furor helped us through
"Babe, you got real wolfen eyes
Would you come and take me down"
Down Down Down
Down like this
So now I'm sober and quiet like a thief
(Don't need an augur to save the day)
Well, I've seen all Nietzsche's blood dry
The things I hear are they what I want
We have no right to what's left inside
Damn right we'll get it back

"... like a falling rose the red wine bleeds lovelorn tears vanish in bereavement...
........ shattered echoes of yesterday I heard them fade away like a...."
(In early 1997)

Wading across the tulip fields in an old park, In remembrance
And in solemn moments such as this I've..............
"En ma enдд aja virvatulta"

They say I got wasted, But my hands are clean
I got long hair and empty pockets, No money at all
But this wastrel's got a free spirit and he'll walk with you
My eyes may have suffered but they're still full of X.X.X.X

It lives in my heart and always will
It lives in my heart and always, always will