I'll still feel the pain

Constantly you'd roll the dice
To find your place in Neverland
Mirage that easily enticed
You into the sinking sand

It wasn't that it could
You said it so yourself
It was only that it would
You play the hand you're dealt

You say you harbor no regret
That love's a double-edged knife
To feel its sting you're desperate
To fee it deep you'd trade your life

So again you roll the dice
To find your place in Neverland
Mirage that easily enticed
You into the sinking sand

It wasn't that it could
You said it so yourself
It was only that it would
You play the hand you're dealt


2. Tug Of War
Hey, what do you want from me?
As far as I can see
There's really nothing you get for free
Hey, are you dense or just unaware
When you know the one that's there
Could care less if you even breathed
There's nothing up my sleeve
Yet I'm the one deceived

Swallow your pride and choke down the pills
Keep it inside and drink to your fill
You push it aside, still waiting
For your ship to finally come ashore
Just one more drop in the downpour to ignore

I know there's a heavy cost
If compromise isn't tossed
Your dreams can be completely lost
Still afraid of change
And I'm the one to blame

Swallow your pride and choke down the pills
Keep it inside and drink to your fill
You push it aside, still waiting
For your ship to finally come ashore
Just one more drop in the downpour to ignore

You sit and sate out the window
Searching for winds of change
Meanwhile.the rest of the herd
Has much greener grass on their range

You hide in a chasm of pride
Too proud to dig yourself out
Heartache to the point where you break
Wake up and scream and shout

Hey, what do you believe?
In dogma and chemistry
Or a psychedelic philosophy?
When damaging your soul
You pay a heavy toll

Swallow your pride and choke down the pills
Keep it inside and drink to your fill
You push it aside, still waiting
For your ship to finally come ashore
Just one more drop in the downpour to ignore

Still you do nothing about it
You're playing tug of war
Still you do nothing about it.


3. Holding The Wind
Hey, neighbor coma and see
Another reason to be me.guess I win
The finest is all I own
Why even my hair's hand sewn.guess I win

You've got a home you prize
Mine is palatial size. guess I win
You drive a new sedan
My driver's name is Sam.guess I win

You know no prize awaits you
You're in a race that no one wins
It's empty what you cling to
It's like you're trying to hold the wind

Check out this mast I got
Now all I need is the yacht.then I'm there
I've got what you yearn for
Now I just need five more.then I'm there

No you can't take it with you
You'll leave nothing in the end
It's empty what you cling to
It's like you're trying to hold the wind

And in the scope of eternity
You're writing checks your soul can't pay
You've hung your hope on futility
And spent your life away

I've got the green to spare
Net worth a millionaire.lucky me
Just got another toy
This one's a horse from Troy.lucky me

You know no prize awaits you
You're in a race that no one wins
It's empty what you cling to
It's like you're trying to hold the wind

No you can't take it with you
You'll leave nothing in the end
It's empty what you cling to
It's like you're trying to hold the wind


4. Beautiful
How did we come to this?
When did we reach that fork in the road
That carried us from our home?

Where did we go wrong?
How could we lose the words to our song
When we were writing it all along?

And how could something beautiful
Turn into something ugly
And change right before our eyes?

And how could something wonderful
Just fade away and slip into
Something that we try to hide from?

What we've become; a mere shadow of the lovers we used to be
Don't you see?

Where do we go from here?
Can we reclaim all that we have lost
And start all over again?

Can we afford the cost?
Should we risk the chance of losing it all
Or walk away now as friends?

And how does something beautiful
Just fade into a memory
Stored there for a rainy day?

And how does something wonderful
Get tossed aside or thrown away
Like something that is broken or frayed?

What a mess we've made
Shards of hearts they splinter beneath our feet
Yet we refuse to retreat

So think about tomorrow
And forgive all the wrongs of today
We should know better than to
Let our pride get in the way

We can make it better
We can save what we have
If we try to rise above our faults

We can make it beautiful
Turn from something ugly
And change right before our eyes

And we could make it wonderful
Just turn our backs on yesterday
And focus on the love that we've made

'Cause we have something beautiful
It's something that's invaluable,
Like waking to a brand new day

What we have is wonderful
It's sublime, it's magical.divine, it's beautiful


5. Queen Of The Informed
You love the righteousness you fell
That no soul was lost to make your meal
You challenge everyone's ideals
But you're sure to let your won congeal

Is just say.
No one but my kind
Has an open mind

You're a friend of the just, of course
If their agendas are just like yours
The only cause you don't endorse
Is just say.
No one but my kind
Has an open mind

I question other's sanity
While I'm handcuffed to evergreens
But if your view opposed mine
I'll flip you off and wave a sign

How blessed to be adorned
The queen of the informed

You erupt that free to speak
Interrupt when they don't agree
The only cause that you don't believe
Is just say.
No one but my kind
Has an open mind

Your daddy drowned in tuition fees
Your M.B.A. in T.H.C..
Your favorite text through all of that
Was 'save a tree' on paperback

How blessed to be adorned
The queen of the informed

If parity is what you need
Then maybe it's time you breed
And stop imposing what you believe
On everyone around

You erupt that free to speak
Interrupt when they don't agree
The only cause that you don't believe
Is just say.
No one but my kind
Has an open mind


6. Living In A Movie
Forgot my alarm; I overslept again
Had to shave in a hurry, almost cut off my chin
Slipped in the bathtub.I think I broke I my neck
My car's out of gas, I forgot to check
Going nowhere fast
What the heck!

Sometimes it feels like I'm living in a movie
Acting out a story that's not my own
There's drama and action – and random acts of tragedy
I don't want to be in this starring role

I got to work late – my boss chewed me out
Called me "irresponsible"; cleaned out my desk
Stopped by the hospice said bye to a friend
Found out I had cancer, only six months to live
What's the joke?
I give!

Sometimes it feels like I'm living in a movie
Acting out a story that's not my own
There's drama and action – and random acts of tragedy
I don't want to be in this starring role

I can't believe it
Bad things are always happening to me
Serenity; achieve it
Maybe it's not as bad as it seems

Pulled over for speeding, I wasn't in the mood
Got sprayed with mace; had a bad attitude
Talked to my wife, she'd understand
Said she was leaving, found another man
How can this be? I don't understand!

Sometimes it feels like I'm living in a movie
Acting out a story that's not my own
There's drama and action – and random acts of tragedy
I don't want to be in this starring role


7. Long Way Down
Dark day in paradise
Tantalized by my eyes mislead
This one you've got to see
And her gaze, it is set on me

Not like I would push the brink
But it sure makes me think

Maybe I need a change
Otherwise why would my eyes so stray
A choice is taunting me
And it knocks on my door today

Not like any vows were bent
Just a glance, it's innocent

Long way down
Don't you think you're too close to the edge
Turn around
Some wounds are so deep they'll never mend

Take it from me it's never worth the cost

Been down that road before
And demise is surely where it leads
The grass looks emerald green
But believe me it's just the weeds

Not like I have crossed the line
Owed her a lunch and a valentine

It's propagation man
Don't you know that a guy has needs
What separates us then
From those things that are scratching fleas?

Am I just a sounding board
Were you hoping for accord?

Long way down
Don't you think you're too close to the edge
Turn around
Some wounds are so deep they'll never mend

Take it from me, it's never worth the cost
I just cringe thinking what I could have lost
It seems you're looking for
Consent to do the same

Where's you're memory
Don't you remember me
The weight of agony that crushed me flat

Are you impervious or just too curious?
Don't you remember what it did to the cat?

Guess what I did today
Now I fear there's no turning back
Next time you need advice
Check the zodiac

Not like I didn't warn
Buckle up, enjoy the storm

Long way down
Don't you think you're too close to the edge
Turn around
Some wounds are so deep they'll never mend

What's it going to be, what's it going to be my friend


8. See No Evil
Heard enough for today
Guess I'll turn and walk away
A leaf that's turned golden brown
The slightest breeze will bring me down

In safety mode system overload
My soul is moved with just disdain
But it's not my job to bring a change

Is it all by design
Or have we gone astray
Didn't we miss a sign
'Cause this can't be the way

Cynicism's a disease
No one's got it worse than me
Even if I raise my voice
It's just gets lost in all the noise

Are we over the line
Or was it ever there
Maybe I should resign
To convince myself to care

Can you feel
(Or are you paralyzed?)
Can it heal
(Or will it spread to our eyes?)
Are we blind
(Or do we choose each day)
To see no evil
(To look the other way?)

A generation born to bleed
On the jagged edge of apathy
And to stand aside and criticize
Is the extent of my expertise

After all that we've seen
You'd think we'd want turnaround
Instead we take each brush with fate
And use it to paint the town

Can you feel
(Or are you paralyzed?)
Can it heal
(Or will it spread to our eyes?)
Are we blind
(Or do we choose each day)
To see no evil
(To look the other way?)


9. Progtology
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10. Comatose
A face with no emotion
Lost in the television's glow
He's slipping into darkness
Not far from comatose

With a bottle in his left hand
A cigarette in his right
He's drowning out the echo
Of voices in the night

Through the conversation
The old me drifts away
Hiding from the moment
I long for yesterday

I hear your voice so distant
Calling out my name
If only I could answer
If we were still the same.

Oh, but we've changed

So what am I supposed to do
And what am I to say?
I feel a bit more paralyzed
With every word you say

And what about the change you want
How can I succumb?
When everything you want to do
Leaves me awfully numb
Awfully numb

Stay for a moment
Stay for while
Join in on this masquerade
Filled with regret and denial
We are kindred spirits,
Though parallel lines
Running off in different directions
Never to entwine

No way to rewind
We can't turn back time

So we avoid the subject
Our communication strained
Sheltered in the small talk
We wait for the other to change

But the song remains the same.

So what am I supposed to do
And what am I to say?
I feel a bit more paralyzed
With every word you say
And what about the change you want
How can I succumb
When everything you want to do
Leaves me awfully numb
Awfully numb

A face with no emotion
Lost in the television's glow
He's slipping into darkness
Not far from comatose