I feel better than yesterday
At night I wake up think about the things I want to say
Can you tell?
By looking at me
I'm not feeling well
I'm trapped in misery
Open up your eyes
Take a look at the world
It's them and not me
Who's are disturbed
At night I wake up and want someone by my side
At night I wake up sometimes I want to cry
At night I wake up I feel better than yesterday
At night I wake up think about the things I want to say
Is there a pattern to follow
I must have lost the track somewhere
I'm longing for a new tomorrow
Cause this night is filled with despair


2. Lackrosy

I hide myself in me and I always will
Overdose of reality has made me ill
Have I spent to much time alone?
I curse myself for being born
When everything drowns in black, there is no turning back
And I don't want to be seen
I hide from reality, I'm scared like a child
Don't come close to me
There is no hope, no joy only anguish that bites
And cuts me like a knife
This is how it feels to be me, do you want to
Take over my life?
Lift me from this abyss where I dwell
Please save me from my private hell
Don't judge, just listen if I speak
No I won't reveal it makes me weak
When everything drowns in black, there is no turning back
And I don't want to be seen
I hide from reality, I'm scared like a child
Don't come close to me
There is no hope, no joy only anguish that bites
And cuts me like a knife
This is how it feels to be me, do you want to
Take over my life?
Dark in room and I'm lying in my bed
Trying to figuring out when I became so sad
Is there a hope and a life for me
I need my dreams more than reality
When everything drowns in black, there is no turning back
And I don't want to be seen
I hide from reality, I'm scared like a child
Don't come close to me
There is no hope, no joy only anguish that bites
And cuts me like a knife
This is how it feels to be me, do you want to
Take over my life?


3. Fear Of Future

How many tradgedies will follow in a lifetime?
How many sad eyes has to be closed and die?
No more tears are falling, will be the begining for others
Escape to avoid sorrow or become another
The fear of future
Has made me hollow
The lies they tell you
You easily swallow
How many weak people will be mislead by sects?
How many wars can we start before we all disappear?
Deeper and deeper are we sinking into the depths of hell
Nothing can ever save us, not even a spell
The fear of future
Has made me hollow
The lies they tell you
You easily swallow
Will darkness dispel and will the pressure go away
I'm fragile like a leaf on a winter's day
My hope is gone and I'm so afraid
Close my eyes and hope it all goes away
I'm crumbling down like ashes in the wind
I isolate myself to become less negative
Will I be able to feel secure
Wherever I go, I hear the death's call
DIE


4. Sleep Demons Sleep

Late at night alone again
Has ceased to think and understand
I'm introvert nothing pleases me
I'm on the edge please set me free
Why can't my demons sleep, why can't they surrender
They are bringing me down they are cold as december
Why can't my demons sleep, why can't they surrender
Am I meant to feel this way, feel this way forever
I'm dead inside like a dry old sea
Don't want to be part of reality
Get more depressed for every day
Some call it life, I call it hell to pay
Why can't my demons sleep, why can't they surrender
They are bringing me down they are cold as december
Why can't my demons sleep, why can't they surrender
Am I meant to feel this way, feel this way forever
A dishearten lullaby they sing for me
They don't want me to fall asleep
Feel like snakes are living inside of me
Flowing through my veins
They remind me of reality and misery
Everytime I close my eyes they appear
Wants to get rid of the pressure and feel some harmony
I'm not the man that I used to be
Why can't my demons sleep, why can't they surrender
They are bringing me down they are cold as december
Why can't my demons sleep, why can't they surrender
Am I meant to feel this way, feel this way forever


5. Freeze The Time

Once upon a time I was not afraid
To face this thing called life
I don't know who's to blame
But there is no happiness in sight
Once upon a time I was happy
I wish I could be again
All I see is darkness
And my eyes are not closed
I'm living in a passed dream
I don't know where it will end this time
All my greater moments are gone
I wish I could freeze the time
Think back to the time when I was younger
I thought it would work it out by itself
I have only grown older
Things ahead of me I just want to forget
I'm living in a passed dream
I don't know where it will end this time
All my greater moments are gone
I wish I could freeze the time
From inside comes the fear that brings me down
Wishing I could go back into a memory
From inside comes the fear that brings me down
Wishing I could get rid of reality


6. Save Me Or Destroy Me

I can't stand to be awake
Let me die before I crack
I can't sleep cause it twists in me
Take me away without dignity
Save me or destroy me cause I can't live on
I'm just a stranger to life
Save me or destroy me I never meant to be wrong
I can't do it on my own
It burns inside like a giant flame
I've never felt a worse pain
I am a freak, don't look at me
If you got rules, just set me free
Save me or destroy me cause I can't live on
I'm just a stranger to life
Save me or destroy me I never meant to be wrong
I can't do it on my own
I walk around in circles
Cause I can't sit still
The anguish boils inside me
Like a flame it's eating me
Please make the pain go away
The guilt and the shame
Can I stand to face another day
If I die would you visit my grave


7. Erase / Delete

Augustnight looking back at my life
What I've done and been put through
I've hurt and been wounded
That's the way life's treating you
Some things I just want to remember
Other things I just want to erase
Walk through life is not tender
Close my eyes and try to forget
Delete this from my mind
Erase the way I felt
Don't let it happen again
I have to take a life
Painful thoughts and insecurity
Kind of feelings I occupy
I have been able to forgive
But it will always be printed in my mind
Why am I always the chosen one
Must be something I've done wrong
Life is cursed and I don't know
If I'm able to go on
Delete this from my mind
Erase the way I felt
Don't let it happen again
I have to take a life
Of all pain I've gone through
This one has been the worst
No matter how I try to forget it
It keeps on coming back
It's like the words are saying
You can forgive but you can't forget
Here I am in the darkness
Wants to erase some of my past


8. Cold Despair

Tears are falling as I sit here again
The night just has fallen and lonely I am
I need to adjust myself and practise to be alone
My mind is messed up and my head heavy as a stone
I scream out loud and I wish someone could hear my despair
I'm searching for some silence and I'm searching for some care
Nobody really knows me who I really am
I got so many words unspoken in my head
Do you want to know what I fear
Can you understand my tears
I'm easy to bring down
I'm everybody's clown
Don't ask me to do things that I dislike
I'm already feeling bad and worse I might
I'm not much of a rejecter so I got myself to blame
I'm weak and wounded and to that you can add lame
I scream out loud and I wish someone could hear my despair
I'm searching for some silence and I'm searching for some care
Nobody really knows me who I really am
I got so many words unspoken in my head
Do you want to know what I fear
Can you understand my tears
I'm easy to bring down
I'm everybody's clown
Close my eyes, close my ears, close my mouth
And I wish it all disappear
I can no longer cope with this life
And I'm so filled with fear
Can you tell by looking at me
That something is wrong
I have eyes but the things that I see
Won't please my mind


9. Your Memory Lives On

Deep within my heart your memory will live on
Always thought that you were that special one
Now we are left alone, so empty without you
Never to come back again, what are we to do
You were an angel, a beauty to behold
Now your wings you may unfold
Left your throne for good, left us all alone
But inside of me your memory will live on
Can't forget your smile, I see you night and day
How I miss you dear, I wish that you could stay
The story of an angel, that sure needs to be told
An angel who's wings now may unfold
It's destiny that brings life to an end
But why you I can't understand
Come back, come back my friend
In my heart thrives your memory to forever live on


10. My Final Night

You can not save me now, nobody can
This is my final night, this is the end
I already know the place, no one can find
I will be walking there and become blind
The words you said to me, has grown into pain
Tears and misery falls like a rain
No more alone in darkness
No more pain and fights
Can you forgive me all
This is my final night
I hope you understand, this was my choice
You all think I'm weak, I heard a voice
Promised me so much good, no one done before
Why should I stay here, it's time to close the door
Think of me once in a while, I hope you all do
I'm buried in the ground but I'm thinking of you
No more alone in darkness
No more pain and fights
Can you forgive me all
This is my final night


11. Leaving The Warzone

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